I know it’s bound to happen soon, your depression is getting to you harder than ever, but you need to remember you have four children, 2 grandchildren who need you in their lives. I know it’s hard to see that we need you, but we really do. We all grew up fast due to everything in our lives but we need you. I’m sorry for everything, but it’s not my fault that you and mom got divorced, it’s not my fault you lost your hand and became depressed, and it won’t be my fault if you choose suicide. As hard as it may be, for me, I will pull through it and I will live my life with love and happiness. I had a horrible life and if you choose death over your loved ones then my life will only get worse, but I will get through it, barely but still breathing. Please father, if you decide to opt yourself I hope you remember us. I hope you will look down upon me and your family and kids and truly be happy. Just please think more clearly. Your style of life is horrendous, just never forget that we all love you, and if you choose death we will still love you and we will always miss you.
Love your son,